Going All In For Myself

 
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To be perfectly honest, there have been a few times in the past three weeks here in London that I’ve felt quite lost. Not just the whimsical, lost in the winding streets of street art and idyllic, old architecture. But in the what-am-I-doing-with-my-life, who-am-I type of lost.

Read more about why I love getting lost while travelling.

I thought I could be that kid who carefreely quit their job to go travelling. But it hasn't been quite as easy - and we're not even talking about the job / money side of things. 

Where it all started, in Vietnam.

Where it all started, in Vietnam.

Looking back at it, it’s has been a truly momentous year.

It all seemed simple enough when laid out in it’s small, somewhat cliché steps.

  1. Fall in love with island life and want to return
  2. Quit your job to travel
  3. Have an incredible experience that changes the way you think about the world
  4. Become a digital nomad and not look back (sorry Mum)

Each of those narratives are becoming so familiar to us. We know how the story goes; we follow that guy on Instagram who’s doing it; we’ve dreamed of doing it ourselves. But piece it all together and you realise that each step has taken its emotional toll.

Each one has been a big decision and I have made no secret about it that I’ve truly struggled.

As cliché as these ideas are, they are still, by nature, a disruptive act. As much as they seem to commonplace, we are still predisposed to follow the more natural path of study, work, work and more work.

Taking on one hurdle has not made the next any easier.

I thought I had already dealt with social expectations and shaking off conventions when I left corporate life. Being a digital nomad was supposed to be my rebellious act of forging a new way in the digital and literal world. Frankly, I think I thought that a digital nomad lifestyle was going to be the answer to the stresses of corporate life.

I wanted to believe all the stats about why people would consider the digital nomad lifestyle. Stats like:

  • 72% expected to be more successful than they are today
  • 43% do not believe their daily actions contribute to a meaningful and positive future

Research from All In.

There are worse places than the Scottish Highlands to feel "lost."

There are worse places than the Scottish Highlands to feel "lost."

But in truth, even after taking a dive off the deep end, I am still one of those stats. I did expect to be more successful, to have more of this digital nomad stuff figured out. I still don’t know if what I’m doing today is contributing to a meaningful future either for myself or for the world around me.

It wasn't till I was reminded that a change in scenery is just that until you're ready to accept the change.

We need to let our inner worlds to catch up, to match our outer world otherwise the same stresses and pressures that work and society can bring.

It's a philosophy that underpins All In - a 9-week program to help find, build and achieve your unique direction. It aims to be accessible – both in price and in a small time investment of just 20 minutes a day.

Speaking to founder and CEO, Sam, I was reminded that even as a digital nomad, it did not mean I could magically escape the problems I faced at home. Just because I shirked the expectations of the conventional life did not mean that I had managed to escape the expectations of where I wanted to be or what I wanted this life to look like.

Looking for the Loch Ness monster, or for myself?

Looking for the Loch Ness monster, or for myself?

Rest assured, I am far from throwing in the towel. After all, I knew that I was going to be flying blind for a little while. It’s now just time to work on my inner self to catch up with my surroundings before flying off again.

To find out more about All In, check out their website.